Thank you, writing and reading has been my companion through it all too. One of the many things that kept me hanging on was that he was seeing a psychologist. I couldn't handle half an hour with his mother, so though my love had gone, my compassion for what he must of been through was very high. That blame and anger at the start can be all-consuming, you're so right, get on that healing and empowering track and those feelings soon dissipate. Thank you for reading:))